Reflecting on my first time back at a market
It’s almost been a week since @aplusmarket and I’ve been reflecting on my first time back at a market since 2019. The highs and lows of running a market stall as a small brand are quite intense. I am an emotional person anyway but now having experienced the trauma of losing my Mum last February, grief has made me extremely vulnerable. Grief exposes you in ways you could never prepare for. When I first had to experience that exposure I didn’t want to see anyone, no one from ‘before’ no one who might ask me how I’ve been, where I’ve been or how my family was. I wasn’t able to lie, the phrase ‘my mum just died’ was on the tip of my tongue constantly, it was the worst possible thing to say out loud but felt impossible to say anything else. The thought of standing at a stall and speaking to strangers felt like an impossible task. I didn’t know when I’d feel Ok to put myself out there again but it seems it happened relatively naturally. And I’m so thankful to the @aplusmarket community for being so beautifully welcoming and fun. The first hour of the market I was ***stressed*** to me my stall didn’t look right, people were walking past me and I felt I wasn’t going to make any sales. To be totally honest I had a wobble, I panicked I wasn’t strong enough to be doing that work again. But with the support of my partner who came and sat quietly behind me all day, I relaxed and enjoyed every second after. It was so lovely to see people trying things on, coming over to the stall with a smile on their face and buying my things excitedly. I’m glad I did it, and I worked so hard to make lots of stock. Lots sold but all that was left is now available in my online store along with made to order pieces for a limited time. Oh and there’s also free aus shipping! Thanks to everyone who supports my brand, it brings me so much joy ????